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Saint Teresa of Ávila / Las Moradas

Sixth Dwelling.
Chapter 9.

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Teresa encourages receiving visions cautiously and recognising their value in greater humility and a more virtuous life. She advises against seeking them or choosing one’s own spiritual path: what matters is trusting God and serving Him out of love, without demanding a reward.

Editorial summary from the website; it is not part of Saint Teresa’s text.

Adapted: an editorial English translation of the website’s Spanish adaptation. Original: Saint Teresa’s Spanish text (1577), preserved without translation.

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Sixth Dwelling

Chapter 9 | Adapted text

Let us now speak about imaginative visions. They say the devil can intervene in these more than in the previous ones, and that must be so. But when they come from our Lord, in some ways they seem more beneficial to me, because they are better suited to our nature. I except those the Lord makes known in the final dwelling, because none can compare with them.

Let us now consider how this Lord is present, as I told you in the previous chapter. It is as though we had a precious stone of immense value and great powers inside a piece of gold. We know with complete certainty that it is there, although we have never seen it. If we carry it with us, its powers continue to benefit us.

Though we have never seen it, we do not value it any less, because we know from experience that it has healed us of certain illnesses for which it is suited. But we do not dare look at it or open the reliquary, nor can we, because only the jewel's owner knows how to open it. Although he lent it to us so that we might benefit from it, he kept the key. Since the jewel is his, he will open it whenever he wishes to show it to us, and will also take it away whenever he pleases, as indeed he does.

Suppose now that he sometimes wishes to open it suddenly, to benefit the person to whom he has lent it. Afterward, remembering the stone's wonderful radiance, she will feel far greater joy, and its image will be impressed still more deeply upon her memory.

So it happens here. When our Lord wishes to favor this soul further, He clearly shows her His most sacred Humanity in whatever way He chooses: as He lived in the world, or after His resurrection. Although it happens so quickly that it could be compared to a flash of lightning, this most glorious image is so deeply impressed upon the imagination that it seems impossible to me for it to fade until she can see Him where she will enjoy Him forever.

Although I say ‘image,’ I do not mean that it looks like a painting, but like something truly alive. Sometimes He even speaks with the soul and reveals great secrets to her.

But you must understand that, even if this vision lasts for a while, one can no more keep looking at it than one can stare at the sun. It therefore always passes very quickly. It is not that its radiance hurts the inward sight as the sun hurts the eyes, for it is with that inward sight that all this is seen.

I could say nothing about what might be seen with the eyes of the body, because the person about whom I can speak in such detail never experienced that. It is difficult to give a reliable explanation of something one has not experienced.

His radiance is like a light coming from within, like that of a sun covered by something as fine and transparent as a diamond, if it could be fashioned in that way. His garment seems made of the finest fabric. Almost every time God grants this grace to the soul, she is taken into rapture, because her smallness cannot bear so overwhelming a vision.

I say overwhelming because, although it is the most beautiful and delightful vision a person could imagine, even if she lived a thousand years and strained to conceive it, it completely surpasses everything our imagination and understanding can contain. His presence has such great majesty that it fills the soul with wonder and fear.

Here there is no need to ask how the soul knows who He is, though no one has told her, because He clearly makes Himself known as Lord of heaven and earth. It is not so with the kings of this world, who by themselves might pass unnoticed if they were not accompanied by their retinue or someone did not say who they were.

Oh Lord, how little we Christians know You! What will that day be like when You come to judge us, if now, when You come so intimately to speak with Your bride, looking at You already causes such fear? Oh daughters! What will it be like when He says in so stern a voice, ‘Depart, you accursed of My Father’ ?

Let us keep this in mind, because remembering this grace God grants the soul can do us much good. Saint Jerome, though a saint, never put that day out of his mind. Then everything we may suffer here through the demands of the religious life we lead will not seem too much, because, however long it lasts, it is only a moment beside that eternity.

I tell you truly that, insignificant as I am, I have never felt a fear of the torments of hell comparable to what I felt when I thought that the condemned would have to see those beautiful, gentle, and kindly eyes of the Lord filled with anger. It seemed my heart could not bear it. This has been so all my life.

How much more will the person to whom the Lord has shown Himself in this way fear it! What she feels is so powerful that it leaves her unable to feel anything else. This must be why she is left as though suspended: in this way the Lord helps her weakness, so that she can be united with His greatness in this most elevated communication with God.

When the soul can look at this Lord calmly for a long time, I do not think it is a vision, but a very intense reflection in which the imagination forms a figure. Compared with the true vision, it will be like something dead.

This happens to some people, and I know it is true because many have told me so, not merely three or four. They have such a weak imagination, or such an active understanding, or whatever it may be, that they become so absorbed in what they imagine that they seem to see clearly everything they think about. But if they had seen a true vision, they would recognize the mistake without any doubt, because they themselves are gradually forming what they see in their imagination. Afterward it produces no effect, and leaves them cold, much more so than if they had seen a religious image.

It is easy to realize that this deserves no attention, and so it is forgotten much more quickly than a dream.

The opposite happens in what we are discussing. The soul is far from thinking she is going to see anything; it does not even cross her mind, and suddenly it appears very near her. This shakes all her faculties and senses with great fear and disturbance, only to leave them immediately in that blessed peace.

Just as there was that upheaval and commotion in heaven when Saint Paul was struck down, so here, in this inward world, a great movement takes place. In an instant, as I have said, everything becomes calm. The soul is taught truths so great that she no longer needs another teacher, because true Wisdom, without any effort on her part, has freed her from her dullness.

For a time, the soul is left certain that this grace comes from God. However much she was told otherwise, at that moment no one could make her fear it was a deception.

Later, when her confessor raises doubts, God allows the soul to waver and think that, because of her sins, she might have been deceived. But she never truly believes it. It is as I said before about temptations against faith: the devil can trouble the soul, but cannot make her cease to stand firm. On the contrary, the more he attacks her, the more certain she becomes that the devil could not leave so many blessings within her. And this is true, because he does not have such power in the deepest part of the soul. He may present something similar, but not with this truth, this majesty, or these effects.

Since confessors cannot see what is happening in the soul, and perhaps the person to whom God grants this grace cannot explain it well either, they feel afraid, and with good reason.

It is therefore necessary to proceed carefully and wait to see the fruits these appearances produce. Little by little, one must observe whether they leave the soul more humble and more steadfast in virtue. If they come from the devil, he will soon give signs of it and reveal himself through many falsehoods.

If the confessor is experienced and has gone through these things, he will need little time to understand, because from what he is told he will soon see whether it comes from God, from the imagination, or from the devil. Above all, if His Majesty has given him the gift of discerning spirits, and he is also well educated, he will recognize it very well even without experience.

What is truly necessary, sisters, is for you to be completely honest and clear with your confessor. I do not mean confessing your sins, since that is understood, but telling him what happens in prayer. Without this honesty, I cannot assure you that you are on the right path or that it is God who teaches you. It pleases Him that we deal with complete truth and openness with the person who takes His place, as we would with ourselves, striving to make all our thoughts known to him and, still more, our actions, however small.

With this, do not remain troubled or restless. Even if it did not come from God, it will not harm you if you have humility and a good conscience. His Majesty knows how to bring good out of evil, and by the very path through which the devil wished to ruin you, you will end by gaining more.

Thinking that God grants you such great graces, you will strive harder to please Him and keep His image always present. As a great theologian used to say, the devil is a great painter, and if he were to show a very lifelike image of the Lord, the theologian would not mind using it to stir devotion and make war on the devil with his own weapons. For even if the painter is very wicked, we should not therefore cease to venerate the image he paints if it represents our Good.

This theologian strongly disapproved of the advice some give to make a contemptuous gesture when such a vision appears. He said that wherever we see our King represented, we should show Him reverence. I see that he is right, because even among ourselves it would feel offensive: if someone knew that a person he loved was making contemptuous gestures before his portrait, it would displease him.

All the more, then, should we always show respect when we see a crucifix or any image of our Emperor. Although I have written this elsewhere, I wished to include it here too because I saw someone suffer greatly after being told to use this method.

I do not know who invented that remedy of making a contemptuous gesture before the image of the Lord appearing in a vision. It is very hard for someone who feels she must obey her confessor, especially if she thinks she will be lost if she does not follow his advice. My recommendation is that, even if the confessor tells you to do so, you should humbly explain these reasons to him and not use that remedy. The reasons given to me by the person who discussed this matter with me seemed very good.

The soul receives a great benefit from this grace of the Lord: when she thinks of Him, His life, or His Passion, she remembers His gentle and beautiful face, and this gives her immense consolation. It is like what would happen here if we had personally seen someone who had done us much good, rather than never having met him. I tell you that this delightful memory brings much comfort and benefit.

This grace brings many other blessings. But since I have already spoken at length about the effects these things produce and shall still have more to say, I do not wish to tire myself or you. I only want to warn you very earnestly about one thing: when you learn or hear that God grants these graces to some souls, never beg Him or desire Him to lead you by this path.

Although it may seem something very good, worthy of great esteem and reverence, it is not fitting to desire it, for several reasons.

The first is that wanting to receive something we have never deserved is a lack of humility. I therefore think that whoever desires it has little humility. Just as a humble peasant is far from wishing to be king, knowing that it is not his place, so a humble person is far from desiring such things. I believe these graces are never granted without the Lord first giving a deep knowledge of oneself. How could someone truly recognize that God already grants her a great grace by not letting her fall into hell, if she is going about longing for such extraordinary graces?

The second reason is that whoever desires them is very exposed to deception. The devil needs only to find a small door open to lead us into a thousand deceptions.

The third is that the imagination itself can intervene when the desire is very great. A person may come to believe she sees and hears what she longs for so much. It is like someone who spends all day wanting something and thinking deeply about it, and then ends up dreaming of it.

The fourth reason is that it would be very presumptuous for me to choose the path myself, without knowing which is best for me. It is better to let the Lord, who knows me, lead me by the path most suited to me, so that His will may be done in everything.

The fifth: do you think those who receive these graces from the Lord have few sufferings? No, they are immense and of many kinds. How do you know you could bear them?

The sixth: in seeking to gain through these graces, you may end by losing, as happened to Saul when he became king.

In short, sisters, there are other reasons besides these. Believe me: the safest course is to desire nothing except what God wills, because He knows us better than we know ourselves and loves us. Let us place ourselves in His hands so that His will may be done in us. If we remain firmly in this, we cannot go wrong.

You should also bear in mind that receiving many of these graces does not mean deserving greater glory. On the contrary, whoever receives more is also under a greater obligation to serve God, because she has received more from Him.

As for merit, the Lord does not take away our opportunity to attain it, because that does lie in our hands. That is why there are many holy people who never knew what it was to receive a single one of these graces, and others who receive them and are not holy.

Do not think these graces are continuous. On the contrary, for every one the Lord grants, very many hardships also come. The soul is therefore not thinking about whether she will receive them again, but about how to respond to the Lord for them.

It is true that they must be an immense help in attaining greater perfection in virtue. But whoever comes to possess those virtues after acquiring them through her own effort will have much greater merit.

I know of someone to whom the Lord had granted some of these graces, and of two others, one of them a man, who so greatly desired to serve His Majesty at their own cost, without receiving these great consolations, and were so eager to suffer, that they complained to the Lord because He gave them. If they could have avoided receiving them, they would have done so.

When I say consolations, I do not mean these visions, because in them the soul recognizes the great benefit she receives and knows that they are highly worthy of esteem. I mean the consolations the Lord gives in contemplation.

It is true that, in my opinion, these desires are also supernatural and belong to souls deeply in love with God. They want the Lord to see that they do not serve Him in expectation of a reward. So, as I have said, they never think about the glory they will receive as a reason to serve Him more. They only want to please love, because love, by its very nature, is always seeking a thousand ways to do so.

If she could, the soul would seek every possible way of being consumed in that love. If God's greater honor required her to be reduced to nothing forever, she would do so very willingly.

May He be praised forever, amen, because in deigning to communicate Himself to such wretched creatures, He wishes to show His greatness.